Hols Angst

It seems that too many hols will make a person angsty, bored, cranky and hateful, particularly when that person has no money, no purpose, too much time on his hands and no games to play with. So, u can basically sum up that its me after all.  I just don’t know what to do already. Online? Done that. PC games? Played all. Call my belle? Called, and not a pleasant one coz I’m boring enough to her. What can I say to her when I’ve told her everything? It did not help especially when my jokes are dry and lame. Sigh….life without purpose is certainly a life not worth living..

Have the mood to write a poem now, words from the heart.

Listen..

Listen…

It’s hard for me you know..

I don’t want u to hate me…

I don’t want you feel angry…

I just don’t know how to say, the words in my heart..

I’m not wise in speaking…not clever in arguing…

I’m no good with humors and jokes, and certainly I’m bad at entertaining…

But..do you have to brush me off?

Sometimes…

I just need people to listen..to be by my side…

You don’t have to say anything..advice anything…

I know what to do, I know how..

But I need encouragement, understanding, and ears that listen..

So…

Listen, will you?

Adjust and Accept?

    It’s one phrase that I remember from Mr Sadass’ class. Adjust and accept. How to prevent conflicts? Understand, adjust and accept. Sounds easy? Kill me. It’s hard. It’s frustrating. It tears your heart out. But when it comes to a boy-girl relationship, can patience and tolerance be stretched beyond the breaking point?

    It’s a bad idea that I’m someone who ppl perceive as not having any planning, doing things at the last minute and basically doesn’t care at all. I know it, and I’m trying hard to overcome it. There should be some changes that you can see in me right. Well, some ppl don’t. I’m unchangeable. I make ppl worry all the time. Am I?

    How far would u go with a person until u feel tat you’re really incompatible and it’s time to let go? How far would u go to accept him/her as who he/she is until u decide that he'/she is not the one for you? Or, would u hold on, finding ways to adjust and accept or even give chances for that person to change? Are you very easy to say, ‘time for me to be me and u to be you’?

    For me, a relationship should be for eternity. There’s one percent possibility that you can find someone that’s really compatible to you. For me, being together is to understand each other, accepting each other as who they are, and adjust to how they are. For me, being together is to hold on tight, no matter how bitter you feel, how frustrated you feel at the moment. I had my share of bitterness, disappointment, frustration. I held on. I failed you I know. Let me have another shot will ya?     

A very short moment of peace

     Yeah guys. Just a filler, to fill up the void in my blog. Felt quite free these few days, though in reality storms are coming. Friday I did nothing except for a short break-fast at Nazrin. Saturday all gone, to the not-so-prestigious DCIM at MidValley, then off to KLCC for the Earth Hour thingy. It was not crowded at all. Well, what’s there to see when all they did was just turning off the lights on KLCC? can see every night by 1am wad. Well, just being there for the sake of it. Alright. No purpose for this post. Wait till my life gets more interesting la. And for the pics of Cohort 4, go see at the Fb page. No point posting them up here. See ya guys around.